Recent life...
has been a bit boring and nothingy, repetitive and missing things I enjoy, and I spent last weekend doing 5 different LGBTQ things in London. I really need a life and passion beyond that, but my only other reliable thing - music - is being really rather shit at the moment and I want some inspiration. I mean, identity politics really IS everything, there IS nothing else and nothing beyond that. Somewhat glad and somewhat miffed that you both agree. I know I need to start reading and writing proper stuff for pleasure and prodding other people again, and that's hard when I only wake up in time to go to work, and when I return home it's 9.30pm and I just want to eat junk and have casual conversation with people. I got Skype at the end of last week and it's making me feel a load less angsty, and that means I have more patience to listen to El and not just be civil because it's expected. I know El's having a tough time due to Uni and trans stuff (somewhat related) and I haven't had the patience or desire to be useful lately, I want a constant drip-feed injection of fun when I'm not at work, and it's not been happening. Day job has been annoying but I've got colleagues to share grumbles with, and we start properly this coming Monday - no more trial runs and promo shit, or time wasted in the office, yay! Knee is healing well, I should have plenty of money to do my full motorbike test within the next month or two, and I'm gonna start going to the gym a lot more. So, hopefully this more upbeat time will continue until the weather picks up and I'm naturally more perky and optimistic.